I went out at the weekend, dressed like this. I showed this picture to my friend today who commented that I must have been doing the ‘Walk of Power’. Today I drew an animal card. I got Jaguar saying “You are powerful, and strong enough to handle anything.” ShamanicJourney.com says that Jaguar is about moving with no fear in the darkness. They tend to be loners, great potential to be clairaudient and should trust their inner vision as if it is reality. “Their words can have a tendency to cut, tear and shred others apart. Learning correct communication skills is of foremost importance for these people.” Something I am more than familiar with.
“When the jaguar bounds into your reality it is asking you to go within, to release your fears, to heal your emotions and to awaken your inner sight. When you come out of retreat the jaguar will be there awaiting you. If you choose to follow his lead, he will guide you into the underworld where the secrets of life and creation are to be found.”
The description of the jaguar is very much how I moved on my night out. As if I were searching for prey, ready to move fast in the darkness. Moving with confidence, trust and control. Until I had the fifth drink that is.
Moving with power in the night, isn’t that part of Winter? We are entering what I call Bear Time. The time where we hibernate, rest, recover from the busy year. Reflect on our work and slowly consider uncurling, ready to tackle another year of goals and forward movement. Bear Time for me is about healing, writing, thinking, reading. Reflect on ourselves in the quiet space of our alone time. If only there was a fire in the middle of the room and an actual bear to curl up with.
When enough Bear Time has been had, it’s time to start to get a little Phoenixy. Set fire to the year. Just before soaring, I felt the need to consider my power. It has been a big discussion with myself and friends recently. What we really have control over. What is within our power. I guess we only really have power over our actions, words, responses. So much is out of our hands, life can become really scary at times. We can choose to stay in a certain way of being throughout whatever happens. Keep our head high and walk tall. I feel this power is creeping back towards me. On my night out I felt incredible. People treated me differently. I was served really quickly wherever I went. People moved out of their way to let me through. Everyone was kind, friendly and welcoming. It wasn’t just because of a red dress. It was because I held myself strongly, confidently, silently, with a smile on my face at all times. I didn’t need arrogance, pushiness or to get loud to get me the treatment I received from people. The dress gave me such a core of inner strength that I had a really quick lesson in true power.
My vision for all this is to imagine the world in chaos around me. A tornado, potentially losing everything in a whirlwind. But I stand in the middle, strong, tall, confident, knowing and trusting that I can deal with whatever the tornado brings or takes. Let’s invoke the jaguar <3