Today I feel calm, quiet and more myself. Some healing has taken place, transforming another piece of my inner brokeness. Another result of a decision I made about a year ago. What a brilliant decision that was! It was a time when I was developing my life a little more. Wanting to be more out in the world and cease playing small. I was having the realisation that my friendships were more key than I had thought.
I am on a quest, to discover and merge the me’s. I have been brainwashing myself with Brene Brown on a recommendation, after a long time of asking why am I not seen. The answer is clear. I have been on a mission to keep myself small. I surround myself with those who want to also keep me small. Very few people want to see me rise. I almost make sure of that. This needs to change
I am sat in my brand new home office 😀 For the first time, I sit at my new desk. I have a world of possibility joining me here. The room is very much incomplete. But all my boxes and all the things that will belong in here, are now in here. I feel somewhat restless. I want to spend all of my energy making this space completely mine, new and fresh. But it is already gone
Tonight is my final night at the flat I called my home for five years. I am not sleeping here. Merely passing by to say goodbye. I have cleared all but a few small items out. All that remains are some pieces of furniture, here for the next tenant. I have so much to reflect on here. When I first came here I was feeling strangled by my landlady and desperate for something cheap and informal. This